That JAV

Why do men have no spirit.... He knew that my profession was 'porn star' and he still liked me, and we were both attracted to each other and decided to go out with each other. But as we got to know each other longer, we had less and less sex, we said less and less words, and I feel that our hearts and physical distance is drastically growing apart. I somehow know why. But no matter how much I ask him out, he always refuses for some reason or another. It's hard...I can't take it anymore...I love him so much, but why won't he hold me? It's been a while since we had a drink together and decided to have a heart-to-heart talk. I'm not as good at sex as porn actors. I don't think I can satisfy Tsukasa." "I don't think I'm a good match for a popular guy who appears on TV or in the media. Was that the reason? I can't believe he was under pressure because he likes me too much...thank God. I'm glad you don't hate me. I felt relieved, happy, and irresistibly lovely, and for the first time in two years, I was embraced by the man I love most in the world.